There are many paths to heal. I refused medication for my injuries.
I always refuse medication, within reason. If I have a life-threatening infection of course I will not be refusing medication. But if I have pain and dysfunction I will not be popping pills to help my symptoms. I will figure out how to help my body heal naturally. I believed my body could heal. It took way longer than I thought and I am still healing but I won’t give up on getting my whole life back.
Okay, truth be told did take some medication at first to take the edge off, but quickly realized that taking the edge off was going to be a daily thing for quite some time and it did not align with me to be drugged daily to not feel pain. This is what I did instead.
June 24, 2015, Wednesday
Had acupuncture, she did Possession Dragons. Whoa. Had to look that one up. Never would I have ever remembered that my acupuncturist used Classical 5 Element Acupuncture.
“In some styles of Chinese medicine, the use of the 13 ghost points is used and can be useful for people with psychiatric conditions. In Classical 5 Element Acupuncture, we use a treatment called the 7 Dragons. This is a set of 7 points that are set in a pattern that reconnects the patient to themselves. It is like the seven beneficial dragons that patrol around the body and expel the demons that have taken up residence.”
“What does possession look like? It is a sense that you can not reach the person that some part of them is not available. You may look into their eyes, and they are not really there. It is like there is a veil over their eyes, and you not reach them. The person may hear voices, have extreme dreams, actually say they feel possessed. The pulses are “unusual” and they may exhibit abnormal speech, thoughts, or eye movement patterns.”
This look is how I describe myself when I look at pictures taken then. I am dead in my eyes, if you told me I was possessed for a short period after, I would believe you!
June 26, 2015, Friday
I had a Karmic release with Lydia, heart was racing madly. Looking back at this, I am so happy I had good people in my life to guide me to these healers. Lydia is my energy coach, I worked with her for almost ten years after my divorce when I was 31. She helped heal my broken heart from a previous relationship.
June 27, 2015, Saturday
So forgetful still it seems. I have forgotten ten times to get the past tense oil for my head. I got a really bad headache had to lay down for a few hours.
June 28, 2015, Sunday
(Clearly forgot to write here there as was a date and nothing)
June 29, 2015, Monday
Had Dr. Cantu today. I did neurofeedback therapy with Dr. Cantu for my head injury. It was eye-opening to see how my brain was impacted by strangulation injuries.
Then went to see Dr. Anderson D.O. today got adjusted it hurt pretty badly. Not sure I like his adjustments anymore. They hurt! Getting put back together after being so out of whack can hurt. Dr. Anderson is an osteopath who has now aligned my spine for six years post strangulation.
My tiny daughter and I are spending so much time together. We watched Frozen she said Pinkie was scared when she was watching. Pinkie is her stuffed animal. She said she is scared because she believes it won’t get better but it does. I love her. I would not have had this time with her if this didn’t happen.
We are struggling with our attorney and fees, she is unresponsive to our needs. Where are we and what needs to be done? Client / Attorney relationship is tarnished, breaking down, feel abandoned with ignored requests.
June 30, 2015, Tuesday
Acupuncture Today, kidneys were an issue. Cried during the session. Ending up crying a lot today, especially on my way to go pick up my stepdaughter.
July 1, 2015, Wednesday
Dr. Yoder today cried. Doctor Yoder is a chiropractor in Encinitas. A healer. If the parents go he sees the kids for free.
A friend of my stepdaughter is telling us how mean my stepdaughter’s mother or the woman that strangled me is mean to her friends and how hard Ze was trying to not yell at her. Talked to Lance have a bunch of great notes to ask our attorney.
- Civil suit need physical codes
- Need statue and limitations on Battery calendar
- Stop being a butt hole about stuff or it is going to come back because of so much physical evidence of injury
- Priority item….more education right to recover attorney costs
- State our general objectives, if the meditator reports one side of the party being completely and totally unreasonable to the court
- Viable Personal injuries…..Punitive damages are an amount of $ different from the actual damages
- If you set out to harm and still have feelings to hurt my wife, your conduct proves it to get to a point to get along.
- Transcript of the sentencing we want to see exactly what was said court reported allocution
Clearly in an angry state of mind over this but it stands as it was. She was a complete butt hole about this whole situation.
July 3, 2015, Friday
Did Alphastim for almost two hours today. Alphastim is a passive neurofeedback session. I use it alot for migraine headaches post non-fatal strangulation.
July 4, 2015, Saturday
UGH feel sick all day huge headache but didn’t wake up with one! Shocker!!!
July 5, 2015, Sunday
Very little to no headache but I didn’t do anything really no cleaning, so no running around nothing but laying around till 3 pm with Sage. It’s Sunday I keep seeing these numbers 11:33 and 2:11. She actually thought that my stepdaughter was upset about coming to our house and that she won’t see her cat. Having a flashback “she’s very upset about now going back in the week with you and not seeing the cat, of course, it’s difficult but what she did is wrong and when she is ready we will talk about all this. Can’t bring it. She hates prime time. Maybe if you tell her you will pick her up after the tutor, she won’t be so upset. It’s at my door. We are not picking it if you want to support her school bring it we can’t leave her because she is so upset. Also, she has been talking about homeschool and not wanting to go to school and told me you don’t want her to talk about it and that you were going on holiday without her. Maybe this is something she is doing for your attention, poor her. I’m glad we started therapy to help her, I am coming to drop her things will 12/31 (our anniversary).” My stepdaughter told us that her mom blocked me on her phone and she is telling us she wants to do it and wants to be consistent. Imagine blocking your own mother! At age 12.
July 6, 2015, Monday
We are all laying in bed it’s 5:30 pm. I got my period. Ugh feeling like shit have a bad headache that started about an hour ago. My husband just went for a massage I hope he feels better. We just arranged for our daughter to go to the neighbors tomorrow while we go meet with the minor counsel.
July 7, 2015, Tuesday
Acupuncture with Mieko and chiropractic with Yoder, great day feeling better. We met with the minor counsel that was pretty darn terrible. She had no interest in hearing what we had to say. She pointed to her wall of degrees with a look on her face that said do not even try to question me. We tried to get her to understand our history but she only saw that we were the problem. This was an eye-opener, the system is so biased. Never should we have gone without our attorney.
July 8, 2015, Wednesday
I Saw Dr. Shannon, did EMDR
July 9, 2015, Thursday
We got served the documents from Sara Neuman for the 7/22. Digging for hours to get all the communication together. Unbelievable that this woman is filing a restraining order against my husband. She attacked us, she is such a psycho.
July 13, 2015, Monday
Have to go see Dr. Anderson today for a recheck and more physical therapy. I am really sore. Thinking a lot about how my initial impression of her was one of such poise. So tall and very beautiful in pictures. It is not always easy to look at photographs of the man you love being with another woman. I think we might all have that inside of us that feeling of insecurity. At least I hope I am not the only one. I inherently knew that he kept the photos to show the kids. You see he grew up in a house where he felt that his Mom bad mothered his father. We burned them all recently though so there is that.
I have suffered badly since Jan 2013 from eye issues. When I look up Louise Hay’s heal your body. It says Not liking what you see in your own life. I now create a life I love to look at. My eyesight is actually getting better oddly. But for nearsightedness of which I have, it is fear of the future, I accept Divine guidance and am always safe.
July 15, 2015, Wednesday
Called Detective Flores. Shockingly, we have to do this still. This woman turned our lives upside down.